Name spelled wrong on every love letter you wrote me

I didn’t bother to correct you

as if my name didn’t matter

 

God, let me fall in love again

but not like before

 

Let me fall in love like the wind

free and flowing not afraid of its potential for destruction

 

You did not know my inner world

never bothered to ask

I never bothered to tell, as if my inner world didn’t matter

 

Yet we jumped into the ocean, hand in hand

You did not even know my name

 

Unbeknownst to us the ocean was only a pool

 

Our heads hit the bottom and we dreamed in our comas that this shallow grave would leave us buried forever in each others love

But I woke up without you

 

and now I am  afraid of cliffs

of wind and of clasped hands

of love letters

of being known

of deceptively deep waters

of not feeling the ground beneath me

of declarations of love